Musings and Scribbles

Someday I will be...

In time will be...

Incomplete the sentence stood

The overwhelming sense of being only half of who she was haunted her every waking moment...

No taste of air

No taste of sun

She was a nymph

A lowly creature 

Her view of the world filtered and dark

Her past had taught her no way to see but how she saw, 

Watching the world through the blurry haze of tears pouring daily from her mind into her stomach...

Scuttling along... through the mire...anonymous...

A lower belly full of tears scraped and embedded with silt

Presently all that she ever had been with the chilling continual pounding in her head... 

The understanding that she just was not enough

In the glow above there was a promise

There is more, there is more, there is more

She craned her neck, heavy with reality, tried to pull her face closer to the warmth 

I know...

There has to be more

I know, there has to be

No matter how many times she tried to climb 

her feet caught no traction

Sliding

Fighting

Her mind raced as she tried to find a million to ways to make the leap to 

take the leap that would propel her running into tomorrow

Falling

Trying against all odds

Running

Against all common sense to get there...wherever there might be

Unrelenting was the anguish of anticipation...

Miraculously, 

Catching hold of her rock, 

Hunkered down deep within herself

She looked around inside and saw 

Clearer than clear

She saw that because she tried, 

Even if she had barely tried

She was what she was

Had become what she would have become

Jaws clenched with determination to make the leap out of her sheath

She knew this was her moment

A deep inner strength rose up from the tears in her belly

A potion

Like magic

Her heart grew light

Experience had forged this moment

Knowledge had given her iridescent wings

Her head opened wide

And out she flew

And out she glide

Into the sky

Where there is more 

There is more

There is more