...one of those days...
Thursday, January 28, 2010 at 01:42PM today was a heavy laden day
full of confused miscommunication
feeling like garbled rocks and marbles
in my mouth throat and ears
feeling like trying to drag a cardboard box
full of old familiar books, even adored ones,
dragging them words through the snow
in a cardboard box with a rope tied around it,
even though it would be easier to leave them there on the curb
it wouldn't be better, just easier.
so we pull
there's this awful oppressive feeling
like a wet blanket smothering flames hovering
between the lines
and i just want to say sweet things,
whisper i love yous and tell you that
your smile is the glowing crescent
rising over the horizon promising a golden day...
but you're not smiling right now
nope. at this point in the junction, i can't
because right now when i say "hello"
you say, "what?"
and when i say "goodbye"
there is silence
and i say, "hello?"
and you say "huh?"
and i say "goodbye"
and you say, "what?"
and now i'm just dizzy...
it's actually easier to stay on the line...
today was a heavy laden day...
until i saw you
handed you a bottle of white
listened to the tellings of your day
about work and self-control at level 10,
you did good inspite of corporate hand
around your throat...
as you spoke, the fact warmed into me...
i had known deep down that i was your refuge
that the crappy ass day of question marks
had nothing to do with me
that it was over and
i was part of the solution
so, why tangle myself into it
why fight?
i'd rather hand you a glass of wine
and let this day melt away
give you a hug, rub your hair
and wait for that smile
Love, frustration, relationships, relax, smile in Heart Sounds 